Fighting Suicide

by Jay Bui
(Prince Rupert)

In the night sky, as naked as our eyes, we see a light that shines, that shimmers, like candles in darkness. While tears roll down my face, I feel like falling out of the earth’s surface, crying endlessly non-stop blood falls from my wrist to my feet, with a blade in my hand cutting myself till every drop of blood hits the ground. Me falling to my knees, only one thing is on my mind, “Why? Why do I feel cold? Why was I born? Why was I alive? Why?” Only one answer comes up “Just because.”

I didn’t quite understand, until I woke up in the hospital surrounded by people that love me. Now, I understand the answer, I was alive just because I would be missed by people I love and by people that love me. With positivity by my side I knew quite well, that I was too young to die, my hopes and my dreams were still fresh with belief that I and I alone can be who I am today.